Life at 25

This noon, I was sitting in a corner of my room-silently sipping tea and tickling my thoughts.. In the process, I realised that in a month or may be 23-22 days, I am turning 25… I felt like a…

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Life at 25

This noon, I was sitting in a corner of my room-silently sipping tea and tickling my thoughts.. In the process, I realised that in a month or may be 23-22 days, I am turning 25… I felt like a reel with subtitles being re-wound and played through my head…. Here’s the gist and thoughts of mine 🙂

#1 Goals:

10 years ago exactly, I pictured myself driving my own Navy blue car- I always wanted to drive a Ford car, don’t know why, but it did and it still does fascinate me-sometimes. I had many a goals… May be, I will just laugh at them now…  I never knew what career was way back then… The only thing I knew closely was Food/Lunch Carrier (I did not know the spelling also 😛 ).
I sometimes said I’d be a Doctor, to some- a Lawyer, to some more- a Scientist… None of these have ever neither come to me on a piece of paper as a degree, nor have I practised any of them… I felt crushed for a moment, coz most of those my age were pursuing or have already pursued their goals…
I may not have reached any goals that I had set for myself.. I know I did not even buy a toy-remote car for myself…

I realised that all these years I’ve not been setting any goals for myself , but I have only built Castles in air…
But then, I justified myself; Though I did not get a degree or certificate in the above three mentioned streams, I have been a Doctor to many pained and troubled hearts that wanted to be healed 🙂 . I have been a Lawyer and stood for myself at many a places… Though many of those who claim to know me well may not consider this, well, I have been there for myself always and have argued not just with others and their perceptions & opinions, but also to myself-my thoughts… Coming to being a scientist- researching – innovating-creating stories and entertaining my readers has made me a scientist too 😀 .
Career wise, I am still going with the flow… I am loving the work I am doing… As long as I am satisfied with the work I am doing, I am happy and I feel that I need not convince anyone by simply lying about doing big things or build fake expectations about myself to anyone, for, I know, in the flow, things will just happen… I need not really run behind it, just the right efforts are enough 🙂

#2 World’s Elasticity: 

The transition from a teenager to an adult seems like a blink of an eye-lid now… All these years, there have been several ups and downs…
There have been days when I’ve felt very happy, laughed till my tummy muscles stretched and ached… Time never bothered at all… It just passed off so soon…

There have been days when I’ve whined, curled, cried and shouted till my throat tore apart…. I have vented anger silently, sobbed with a smile on, masked all my feelings. All these days of sadness felt longer…Each day, I eagerly awaited to smile even under the mask… I wanted to remove the smiley mask and smile for real…

When I met people whom I never wanted to be a part of my life actually came into it, I always felt that the World is a small place, populated with morons…

When I am in search of that one “special” person, I now feel that the World is so large and each day,it is stretching miles and miles longer…

With a collection of Paradoxes, I now understand that,  People walk-in and out of our lives, Situations arise and fall teaching us many lessons… It is we who must be well aware of the lessons taught by people, situations and feelings. Making ourselves aware of this Elasticity of Infinity and prepare ourselves to remain Neutral to everything-be it any Ups or Downs.

#3 Achievements:

I see a lot of my classmates, friends and cousins post their achievements very proudly… I see my fellow 25 yr old’s reach stars already in various fields… I see people posting their pictures and status on the social media stating their achievements… Someone telling that he is heading for a 3rd Masters Degree, some one telling she opened her own boutique, someone or the other in some corner of the world , everyday, is achieving something or the other…someone else is struggling to achieve what the other person has achieved.
For some, achievement is in career, for some-in family, for some-in the public…
While someone in some corner is achieving something, accomplishing some or the other task, I feel, I am not a part of that corner of the World… Coz, my World is a Circle and it has no Corners at all 🙂
Living and surviving all these years is the greatest achievement… Every breath, every heartbeat counts… Isn’t that one of the greatest of achievements???

“Living this moment is an achievement, rest all are just  accomplishment of minor tasks” 😉

#4 Earnings:

5 years ago, I pictured myself heading a Team of professionals, earning not less than 12 L.P.A… Then, as days passed, I saw my friends, classmates and cousins either earning more than me or struggling to equate my salary..
Days passed… Several situations of several people made me realise a lot…
When you are thirsty in a Desert, you can’t drink money. When there is an earthquake and your millions worth bungalow is all damaged, even a hut made of bark seems like heaven. When loneliness hits you hard, money cannot buy you love.
Money can buy you only materials, never Love…
All these 25 years of my life, I have Earned a lot of love, affection and care from a few people- if not the world as a whole 🙂
Money, wealth, luxuries are short lived, when you die, even your name and fame dies with you- if not immediately, after a few years it will-coz you will be succeeded by someone for sure… All that remains are the memories of yours, with your loved ones-all the love that you gave and that what you got from your people… Live a Life worthy living- not just for yourself but even for others-That is where you will make a difference-Be a legend” 

#5 Learning: 

Learning for me has always been learning a new subject in school/college, write exams and fare them with some good grade…
Later, after years-Today, I figure out that I have learned a lot from every smile, tear drop, loudest of laughter, silence of words and anger that has been vented…
As most of us talk, we have either talked about our greatness or have criticised someone… Because of these acts, we have and still do, lose people from our lives…. In order to show the world that “I too am sustaining”, we are trying to superiorize ourselves to others.
I see a child locked up in every individual- locked up and buried deep inside with thick and big walls of EGO. That child who is crying and pleading us for freedom…. That child who is feeling unjust within us, for doing those actions that are not liked by him/her… We are all bottling up many of our emotions, trying to prove ourselves to the World… Trust me, World is never asking you to prove anything… Everyone, is in some or the other way facing some or the other problem and every child in every grown up individual is crying for freedom from falseness.

For once, I learned that I have to let out my inner child, regain that innocence and accept everyone the way they are, correcting myself and expanding my Circle to give space for everyone to stay in, expanding my Circle’s boundaries, vast enough.

If you bind your book called Life, with the thread called Love, this World would be the most peaceful place to live in” 

My learning never ends here, it is a journey that stretches infinite miles long 🙂

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Love & Cheers,
Meenu Iyer A.k.a Aarya